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Strange.

I haven't blogged since last year.

That is a new record for sure.

I was sitting on my couch the other day wondering why this was, and couldn't come up with a plausible answer, only that I haven't made time for it, and that I'd gotten out of the habit of blogging.

Not a good thing to do, especially if you enjoy it. It's like a therapy. I like writing because I listen to people a lot, and usually don't say much. So on paper, I get to say the thoughts that don't get a chance to get air.

Hence, my sudden appearance. Spring resolutions. The urge to write. And a little remorse for abandoning such a trusty blog.

The only problem is, is when you get out of the habit of doing something, it takes much more effort and resolve to do it.

Then there's the daunting thought of trying to write down a years worth of interesting events in one post. I think that thought alone kept me from writing, and the old stories got buried by the new ones---creating a constipated writer, and a constipated blog.

So I'm giving my blog an enema.

Or maybe some ex-lax!!!!

Yes I do believe my blog needs a liver cleanse.

Lots of lemon juice, and oil, and....

If you can't tell, I am on cleanse right now,(for real) and the detox is now spreading to my writing.

Scary.

Yes.

Do you wish to read further?

Read only if you dare.

Cover your eyes.

Maybe your computer screen even.

Detoxes can be....detoxifying.

The pouring fourth of words may be only something my eyes should see.

Seriously. I don't know what words will spill out, or if they'll even make any sense.

In all seriousness, I am doing a special heavy metal detox liver /parasite cleanse. And feel like I've been starving myself on and off for a while. If you've ever done a cleanse you'll know what I'm talking about. Please note before reading further that these are my health observations only, my words are not meant to treat, or cure, or diagnose you, your children or your family in anyway. I am not a doctor. I'm just a person interested in health, happiness, life.

So now that we got that out of the way.

Health/heavy metal detoxing----That is the headline for today.

I told you this would be a scary blog post.

For the past week I have wanted brownies!!!

Hungered for brownies.

Dreamed about brownies.

I think detoxing brings out my inner chocolate gremlin.

I've been hungering for mint layer brownies to be precise. My resolve to eat healthy has been dwindling...I'm worried that I may succumb to goodies, and then what will I do? This post will be for naught, and I'll be a hypocrite.

But alas, I must confess, the other day I looked up a recipe for the above said mint layer brownies, then I made them!

I know. The horror.

I did.

It was very satisfying too.

Then to preserve my self control, I chopped them up in tiny bite size pieces, put them in the freezer outside, so it would be harder for me to get at.

But not so hard.

I've been going out there and eating them in ravenous delight from time to time.

Oh the shame.

You, dear blog, are my brownie confessional. Oh forgive me. I did enjoy eating them.

And while I'm confessing, I also ate a cookie that was sitting on the cabinet this morning. But that was after I ran a mile, so maybe it evaporated before it had a chance to stay around.

I shall hope.

What shall I do as penance?

Eat five heads of broccoli?

Two cabbages?

Twenty carrots?

A pile of juicy tomatoes? Sixty jalapenos? Or that one kind of vegetable I can never remember its name but it smells like dirty socks when you cook it. Ugg, my stomach churns at the thought.

You're probably wondering why I am doing a heavy metal detox? Why I'm confessing to eating chocolate brownies.

I'm actually wondering that myself.

Maybe it's because I'm crazy. Maybe it's because I'm worried that I'm crazy, and don't want to be crazy, so I'm trying lots of health things, that sound crazy so I don't have to worry about being crazy. And this just sounds crazy.

Oh dear.

Truth be told what started my desire to detox was because at the beginning of the year my sister and I got all of our amalgam fillings removed, (it was very expensive) and replaced with special composite ones, at a special biological dentist. The biological dentist is different from a conventional dentist because he is especially trained to safely remove mercury fillings. He uses a special dam inside your mouth to keep you from swallowing amalgam shards. He also puts a oxygen mask over your nose to protect you from breathing in the mercury vapors that are released when they drill them out.

You're probably thinking, that is crazy! Why would you waste all that time, and money on getting your amalgam fillings replaced if you didn't have to?

I actually thought the idea was crazy too when I first heard about it--nuts actually.

Who believes in that amalgam stuff anyway? Quacks.

Yeah.

That's what I thought until I actually learned where the term quack came from. I wasn't so quick to judge then.

Plus I fear dentists! So the thought of going to a dentist to have them redo work another dentist has already done was something I didn't just decide overnight.

My fear of sitting at a dentist chair is bone chilling.

My hands and feet get icy cold, and even though I'm freezing in the dentist chair, I begin to sweat, and while I'm in the chair, I forget to breathe.

And when I forget to breathe, my heart starts to pound----and then I feel like I'm going have a heart attack....

So why do you ask? Why would someone who has a petrifying fear of dentists willingly seek them out, and have them take out perfectly good amalgam fillings?

Why is because I'm deeply interested in health, especially mental health, and wellness. I'm constantly searching for answers in this world where there are so many physical and mental health issues. I spent hours, and hours searching other people's blog posts, and stories on the subject until I was absolutely convinced that I needed to get them out of my mouth.

Plus I figured if I was wrong, I didn't have much to lose, and I was willing to be a my own guinea pig. I decided to test it out and see if my own health improved.

That's why I did it.

At the time I had about 4 1/2 amalgam fillings in my mouth. But they were deep, and nearly to the root, which makes the mercury go into the bloodstream.

The dentist also found that under all of them there was quite a bit of rot. Lovely. I guess it's normal for amalgam fillings to weaken the tooth, and create decay.

However I've had probably dozens of amalgam filings throughout my life, I can't think of a time that I haven't been exposed to mercury. As a kid I had tons of mercury fillings, some I accidentally swallowed when they fell out, some were removed by normal dentist (which is very dangerous to your health) but I had no idea at the time. So if you ever consider getting your mercury fillings removed, make sure for your own health, to do your research and find a mercury safe dentist to safely remove them.

Your body can store mercury in your tissues, and even your brain even after you have the mercury removed. Heavy metals are tough to get out of your system because your body stores them, kind of like a hoarder, thinking its useful, and will save the heavy metals for later. But all the heavy metals do is slow down your system, make it harder for your body to work, and eventually it builds up, like piles of junk making your house unusable, dirty, and unable to live in.

When I was first learning about mercury, the more I researched on the subject of mercury the more disturbed I became for many reason.

One reason was that I was disturbed was that I had been vaguely aware that mercury was bad, and shouldn't be in our mouths. But because I had no idea how to even begin to change what had already been done in my mouth, I always looked the other way, and dismissed the idea. It wasn't and still isn't a pleasant subject, just like if you bring up vaccines.

You know what I mean? It's a hot topic, where someone is likely to get burned, stoned, or worse. But truly, honestly, wouldn't it be nice if we all were able to have a conversation with zero accusations, with the intention to learn, to understand, and be understood. To realize that pro vaccine, or anti vaccine, we all want what's best. Truly.

I've always been up in the air in regards to vaccines until I did some in depth research about mercury in vaccines. I didn't realize that Thimerosal in vaccines contains toxic mercury, not to mention aluminum. But that is another conversation for another time.

Lets just say Mercury is one of the most toxic substances known to man, but we put it in our mouths, and inject it into our kids.

It can cause our bodies so many problems.

Psychological problems.

Physical problems.

Mental problems.

Emotional problems.

It can mimic symptoms of MS.

Stomach problems.

Gum problems.

It can lodge in your brain and cause Alzheimer's.

It can cause depression.

Neurological disorders.

The list is so long it's disturbing.

During my research I delved deep into the history of mercury and found interesting tidbits that gave me more reasons for my theory. It became a pet research subject of mine whenever I had free time. Just when I thought I couldn't find anything else on the subject a new google search would turn up new gems.

I learned that some of the worlds most beloved artists/musicians and leaders had been exposed to high amounts of mercury, led, and other heavy metals, which in my belief, may have caused their poor health, and sometimes their erratic behavior.

I'll only list a few gems I found out during my research

Ever heard of Mad hatters disease? Workers in the felt industry used to make the felt soft by peeing on it. One worker who peed on the felt had syphilis, who was being treated for his condition with mercury. They noticed that his pee made the felt particularly soft, so they began using mercury in the production of felt, which poisoned their workers.

You can read more about it here: https://corrosion-doctors.org/Elements-Toxic/Mercury-mad-hatter.htm

The German word for Mercury is "quacksalber." And doctors and dentist who used mercury in their practice were called quacks.

You can read more about that here: http://www.mnwelldir.org/docs/history/quackery.htm

Mercury was used to treat syphilis.

You can read about that here : https://madnessofnorthwales.com/the-role-of-mercury-in-the-treatment-of-syphilis/

Mercury was used to treat sore gums in children, causing pinks disease.https://academic.oup.com/shm/article-abstract/10/2/291/1731055?redirectedFrom=PDF

Mercury had anti bacterial effects, and they used it in first aide solutions.

I even found some old mercurial ointment in my medicine cabinet that my mom used to put on our wounds as kids.

Louisa may Allcot was treated with mercury after she caught typhoid, and had poor health until her death. http://mentalfloss.com/article/89228/10-little-facts-about-louisa-may-alcott

Prior to George Washington's death he was given calomel(a mercury solution) before he died. https://www.varsitytutors.com /earlyamerica/early-america-review/volume-9/washingtons-death

http://www.americanrevolution.org/dental.php

Abraham Lincoln would treat his depression with little blue pills--the key ingredient in them was mercury.

https://news.nationalgeographic.com/news/2001/07/0717_lincoln.html

The Romans used to send condemned men into mercury mines, because they knew that within a short time the workers would get sick and eventually die.

That's just some of the interesting tidbits I found on the internet.

Truth be told, it took my sister and I lot of guts to actually find a biological dentist even remotely close to where I live, and take the expensive plunge, and get them safely removed. Our friends and family thought we were crazy. But we did it anyway.

At the dentists, I didn't know what to expect. A biological dentist is just safer, more conscientious, and educated when it comes to mercury. I found that wearing a oxygen mask while he worked on my teeth was actually pleasant. It was not as constricting as I thought it would be, and I actually liked it, because you don't smell all the junk coming in and out of your mouth while they work on you.

The first dental visit I had a check up, and it took several hours because he was very, very thorough. I got a 3D scan of my entire mouth, and learned things about my teeth I wasn't sure I wanted to know. But he was very kind, and took several hours with me and my sister, discussing the Xrays in depth, and outlined what we both needed to do next.

The second visit, I got two of my amalgams removed, and the dentist gave me some vitamins to help take out the heavy metals in my system.

That was when I decided to keep a log of how I felt afterward, just so I could decide based on my own experience if the whole thing was worth it.

This is my not so scientific health log. You can skip past this part, but I'm including it for my own documentation.

Day one of getting them out, I felt energized, and actually felt really good. But my teeth were really sore. But I was very happy to have the part of the poison out of my mouth!

Day two after having to of my fillings removed I had the most Massive migraine. It developed right after I took the heavy metal cleansers the dentist gave me! It felt like my head was so pressurized my brains were going to explode. I also felt this weird tingling sensation like bugs are crawling in my brain. The creepy crawly sensation also started tingling at top part of my cheek where I had one of my fillings removed.

My headache was so bad. I was so miserable I wanted to die. Eventually I took two Excedrin at the end of the day, and felt a lot better

Day three

I woke up early feeling pretty good, I had energy from the Excedrin I took from the previous day, but felt a little weird. I think the caffeine from the pills was still in my system.

Day four I felt like a zombie, like I've hung upside down and my head is floaty, zero energy, feel like my limbs have no strength in them. I feel a little dizzy, my head still has weird prickling sensations like bugs crawling in my brains, and sharp pains in the top part of my scull.

Day five, (new years day) I noticed that I'm dreaming a lot! Slept in, felt like I could keep on sleeping, still feeling a lot of lethargy, having a hard time focusing. My teeth are still sensitive, and I'm wishing I felt a little more peppy. Went on a walk and notice that my eyesight feels brighter, clearer. I still have that creepy bug, tickling, crawling feeling in my head, and now above the tooth that had the filing removed, I know that sounds weird, but it feels like my eyesight is getting better, like someone washed the windshield of my eyes. Still skeptical. I'm wondering what it would be like if I actually had all of my fillings out at once.

Day six

Woke up at seven, liver hurting, but feel energized, feel like I can breath very well out of both nostrils. That makes me happy!!! Thinking the glutathione that my sister gave me to take is making me feel like I have a bit more energy. It's supposed to help detox heavy metals. Went back to bed, dreamed a lot more about flying, woke up feeling tired, but had enough energy to work out, ice skate, and actually get some work done.

Day seven

Woke up a little tired. My stomach was a bit upset, but overall had a lot more energy. Took some more cleansing supplements, and some more glutathione. Was able to ice skate, and two an hour of tiebo. Towards evening I had a slight headache on the side of my head that still has amalgam fillings.

Day eight

Woke up and took a lot of cleansing herbs, didn't eat much until two, and still had energy. Though the side of my face where I got the amalgams out feels swollen, pressured, and pretty crappy honestly. Wondering if my teeth on that side are okay, or if a storm is just coming and my wisdom teeth are telling me so.

Either way, I'm not sure what to think.

Day nine

Felt very, very sleepy, took a lot of cleansing herbs, there was a lot of pressure on the side of my mouth where my amalgams were, so I took some Echinacea and did some lymph exercises.

Day ten,

Still pretty tired, but making myself do work, and feel medium okay, less pressure on the right side of my face, and feeling hopeful. Still taking the cleansing herbs the dentist gave me.

Day eleven Feeling a bit tired, it's my period, so my legs are aching something terrible, more than normal.

Day Twelve second day of cramps, (my legs ache) And I have pretty horrid cramps towards the first part of the day.

Day 13, Woke up with a headache in the left side of my neck, but I have more energy than normal, and am able to get a lot more stuff done, towards evening the headache came back, and I feelt like crap. I did some Tiebo and my sister gave me some glutathione, and some heavy metal chelators. About an hour goes by, and my head feels so much better. I have tons more energy, and now I'm up, wanting to get more stuff done. I feel a lot better.

Hope this is for keeps.

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That was as far as I got with doing a daily log of how I felt.

During those first days of having a couple of my amalgams removed I had more bad days, than good days, and my teeth were super sensitive afterwards, so I couldn't chew on anything hard. I was tired, and my head ached a lot.

Doesn't sound fun, but I honestly am grateful I chose to do it now than later.

I eventually figured out that the heavy metal chelators the dentist gave me was stirring up the metals already in my system and making me feel worse. So I began taking liposomal glutathione and liposomal vitiman C--it's basically more absorbable in this form, and helps your body detox in a better way.

And the number one supplement that actually made a difference in helping me feel much better, is a sulfur compound called IMD Quicksilver Scientific. https://www.quicksilverscientific.com/

If you mix it with unfiltered water it tastes like skunks, but if you put it filtered water it's drinkable. The only beef I have with it is that it's oober expensive. $130.00 a bottle, and if you take too much it can give you a headache. I have to remember to drink lots of water with it. Note again, that I'm not recommending you take any of these supplements, or try the path I took, I'm just telling you what I did, and am doing. I honestly think that some people's body's are so toxic that unless they have a skilled doctor, or holistic health doctor guiding them through their detox, a detox could do more harm than good, and recirculate toxins in their body.

As I was saying, this supplement IMD is a heavy metal chelator, and cleans out toxins through your poo. Some days it gave me headaches, but one day it also relived a terrible migraine I had. It really depends on where you're at in your cleansing. People say it takes years to cleanse heavy metals. Cheery thought.

Yes, it's expensive, but I honestly think it's worth it, so I'll probably buy another bottle when I'm finished with the first one.

Towards the end of January I moved up my next dentist appointment sooner, and I got my other three fillings out. I had two mercury fillings, and a piece of mercury under a white filling from a previous dentist.

After I got my last mercury fillings removed, my lymph glands on that side were very swollen, and I felt super forgetful, and loopy. It actually scared me a little. I've always had trouble remembering names, and numbers, so I was worried the recirculating heavy metals were going to wipe out what funky memory I did have.

And then both sides of my teeth were very sore!! I seriously couldn't chew anything very hard. Crackers were painful to chew. I had a hard time eating anything for a while.

It was the ultimate diet plan.

It's now been a couple months since getting all of my fillings removed, and my teeth are less sore than they were. But they are honestly still pretty tender if I chew on something very crunchy. But considering I had very deep fillings, I guess it will just take time.

I've been cleansing, and been eating so much garlic that when I walk past my mom she cringes, wrinkles up her nose, and asks if anyone smells skunks.

I have days were I feel like the energizer bunny, full of motivation, and energy, and clear thinking, and other days were I feel the complete opposite.

Cleansing is a strange subject. You mention the word and people look pale, and get a distant look in their eye of disgust, horror.

And rightfully so.

It's not so fun.

But being sick isn't any fun either.

It takes self discipline.

And sometimes you feel worse before you feel better.

Am I crazy?

Probably.

Am I feeling better.

Some days.

Do I think it's worth it?

Yes. But I don't think that everybody can cleanse, because some people are so toxic it might cause more problems than it's worth. Do your research! Do your homework.

Listen to your body.

Consult your doctor.

Be wise.

Some people are too toxic to cleanse without proper medical help.

I am just a random soul, writing about my own experiences, willing to be my own guinea pig. Everybody's bodies are different. I believe that some people are more sensitive to mercury than others----I think I and my family are very sensitive to it.

I also believe you need to do your research about heavy metal detoxing, because you can make yourself sick if you don't do it right.

Would I choose to get my amalgams out if given a second choice? Absolutely.

I'm hoping to someday get enough funds to help my mom, and other family members safely remove theirs.

Health wise, I feel like I've had some very good days, and bad days.

I've had days with tons of energy, and days with zero energy. I've had nights where I slept like a log, and nights where I didn't sleep at all.

My neck and hip joints are looser, and I feel more limber. I can breathe so much better than I could before. I used to have a perpetually clogged sinus on one side.

After my amalgam removal, now, more often than not, I can breathe out of both sinuses. My eyesight is much clearer, like someone has washed the windows to my eyes.

My knees don't hurt me so bad----and I was able to run a mile in ten minutes last week, which is big for me. Especially after I injured my knee.

Right now I'm still in the stage of wondering if my body is really healing, not just wishful thinking, or believing it to be so. I'll have to do an update in a year or so.

But I do believe my health is improving.

I had been coping with terrible migraine headaches that would reoccur almost every week, with few non headache days in-between, to the point I felt like I was a broken record player when I told my family or friends that I had a headache again. It made me feel like I had some sort of character flaw, like I needed to repent of something to keep the headache Gods from striking me.

So far I have noticed a definite difference for the better in the migraine department, I have longer periods between headaches, and not so frequently. That in itself is enough for me to be extremely grateful!!! So I do believe there is a definite connection between headaches, and mercury.

Psychologically I feel calmer, and more at peace. Happier, less fearful, and more chill with me.

The hidden illness of ocd, anxiety, and depressedness which many of us cope with, has been something that I've just lived with, and tried to positive thought away, especially on days when I felt like I didn't want to exist. But honestly something that has helped me to be a brighter, happier person, is eliminating stress triggers for me, and eliminating copper from my diet, and introducing zinc, and magnesium into my diet.

If you're ever bored, read up on the health effects of too much copper. It's quite interesting.

Zinc, and magnesium help me feel more peaceful? Yup. It's such a funny statement, but it's true. It's helped me be more chill, and when I'm more chill, I'm happier, and when I'm happier, I'm kinder, and when I'm kinder I feel at peace. And when I'm at peace I feel creative, safe, able to give more, and love others and myself more.

I've come to the point in my life where I truly believe that despite genetic predispositions, we can heal our bodies from the inside out.

It's funny that we try so hard to control others, or change the world when our bodies are wastelands of toxins. As a people, we are all so are addicted, hungry, malnourished in relationships, and in every area of our lives, we are always searching, yet abundantly rich people, but very unhappy most of the time. That's the paradox.

We need to clean our temples where our soul resides.

Start with one toxic habit, one toxic food and replace it with something better.

That's how we change the world.

We change ourselves.

It's a lot harder to take out the mote in our own eye, than it is to point out flaws in those around us.

Healing. It's not all flowers and sunshine. It's hard work to change, to create a new paradigm, to give yourself a new blueprint, to stop blame, and look at everyone with compassion, including yourself.

If your boss is rude, he's probably constipated.

If your parents didn't love you the way you thought they should, they probably had a clogged liver.

If your uncle was nasty, and sour, he was probably just full of mercury and toxic.

If you feel hungry all the time, can't lose weight, and tired all the time, with sore joints, maybe you're not lazy at heart, maybe you're just sleep deprived, hungry for real food, and have parasites or worms, which love to reside in bodies full of mercury--- Apparently mercury can cause your body to be very acidic, a perfect place for toxins, and parasites, and those little yeasts everybody talks about candida.

Maybe I'm wrong.

Maybe it sounds just like more excuses, reasons for people to be nasty, and not accountable for their actions.

Maybe.

But it's a more compassionate way. And I choose it.

We are all buzzing around each other passing judgment on ourselves, and others, forgetting the toxic loads we all carry, both mentally and physically.

We are all so busy we forget to take time to pause, to listen, and clean the place where we live.

Our own house.

We send kids to school expecting them to learn, expecting them to excel when we ignore that heavy metals, and other toxins we expose them to can damage their ability to learn.

At collage we cram, and abuse our bodies, yet expect to reap what? Success?

What is success if your body and soul are so toxic that you can't feel success when you have finally found it?